Ritual Cafe Exhibition 2012
I struggled with alcohol and drugs for half of my life leading me down a very dark road feeling suicidal often with several attempts…I was sadly lost for 20+ years. I grew up in a Christian home with a very loving family but I slipped into a life of debauchery around the age of 14. I had my son at age 16 and dropped out of high school. I did get my GED and went to community college for a photography for a year but my drinking and drug use would lead me to rehab at age 19 for cocaine iv use. For the next 8 years I had countless jobs, several toxic relationships and then my oldest brother Eric Jacobs died tragically in a plane crash when I was 27. I ended up very lost and I tried to drown the pain with alcohol and drugs for years. I lived a life that made me feel ashamed and deeply depressed. In the artwork I had at the ritual cafe you can see the pain and darkness clearly but you can also see some glimpses of light. Like the big painting with the huge circles had a face that looked like Jesus up in the corner and two people on their knees praying. Either way this was my first art show and it gave me great hope but the drinking and lifestyle was keeping me from what God had planned.
It was very exciting to have my art at the Ritual Cafe. I started painting or at least putting some kind of intention behind it after my brother Eric died in 2006. I did not have a belief in God or a faith back then despite growing up going to church. Eric was always trying to help me see the way but I had thick scales over my eyes. I resisted trying to understand and just sank deeper into my alcoholism. I thank God everyday for the not giving up on me and revealing something deep inside my soul that wouldn’t let me take my own life. I hoped there was a better way to live. I was in such desperate need of real love and purpose. Then I met Jesus 🙏🏼 I’m extremely grateful to have a full heart and a purpose. Thank you Jesus!
If you or someone you love is in need of prayer of help please Contact me or my church Lutheran Church of Hope. There is a better life!
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He is Risen!!
