Grief feels like waves crashing in without any notice and slowly going back out. Sometimes taking my breath away with pressure so heavy I feel like I’m drowning. I can’t put into words the pain I’ve experienced in the last couple months mourning the physical death of my mother. But I can tell you that I have experienced Gods grace and faithfulness on a whole new level.
Because of my mom (she would say it’s the Holy Spirit and she’s right) I finally started studying the Bible the last 5 years. She had all kinds of great recommendations of stuff that she already studied. She said she would study it again if I would do it with her. As I’m writing this I’m just bawling because I wish I would’ve done more of those things before she passed. But I’m so incredibly grateful for the time we had. She taught me so much. She taught me to trust the process.
Let it flow even when it hurts. The growing pains are part of the process. There’s only been a few days that I haven’t cried. I miss her so much. I can hear her voice and things she would say to me. Like “something good can come out of this.” She would say that all of the time.
I have found peace in the pit of the barrel even as my tears fill up the ocean. Being called into the deep unknown has showed me how powerful Gods word really is. It is vital. It is a life line. It has continually pulled me from the darkness.
I’ve also witnessed an amazing community uplift me and my family through these difficult times. Thank you! I’m so deeply grateful we have access to Gods word and are free to follow Jesus with our community.
Sometimes you have to sit still to get somewhere. Sometimes we have to release an ocean of tears to ride the grief waves. Sometimes we have to just sit in the ocean deep tears and let the waves crash over us. So that we can be cleansed. So we can trust. That this too shall pass. That this is not the end. We will see our loved ones again. In paradise.
Fine art paper prints available in a few sizes. Please select a size in the drop down box.
This will be Created live at the Unstoppable Success Summit in Dallas, April 26, 2025. Once art is completed live a photo of the actual artwork will be posted.
My prayer is that this powerful painting captures a moment of divine transformation. Painted in prayer and worship, Rising Lights is a visual testimony of resilience, joy, and the unshakable strength found in faith.
In quiet majesty, the moon phoenix rises from the still waters—its wings unfolding in grace and mystery. Cloaked in cooler tones, it glows beneath the gentle pull of the pink moon, casting reflections of greens and soft blue across the pond. Yellow water lilies float nearby, illuminated by the moonlight as symbols of purity, peace, and the quiet strength that comes from within.
The Dallas skyline stands silhouetted in the distance, softened by the calm of night—a reminder that even in the dark, God is at work. This phoenix represents the sacred process of healing, the stillness that births wisdom, and the power of rising slowly but surely. It is a symbol of restoration, inner fire, and divine timing.
This part of Rising Lights honors the journey that happens in silence, the battles won in the dark, and the faith it takes to rise before the dawn.
Each print is a high-quality reproduction of the original artwork, signed and prayed over, and available in multiple sizes.
50% of proceeds will be donated to Convoy of Hope, helping women and families around the world rise from hardship and walk in hope.
Even in the shadows, you are rising.
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