Praying is all I want to do lately. My plans for this year did not go the way I thought they would, along with everyone else in the world! Life changed when covid-19 arrived. Then I was in complete shock when George Floyd and Breonna Taylor were killed. The peaceful protesting sadly overturned by violent riots. Then all the fires out west in the United States and Australia. The hurricanes in the Gulf of Mexico. The Derecho devastating the Midwest. All the political noise from the upcoming election. It’s an understatement to say this year has been challenging and full of twist and turns like a tv series on Netflix. I’ve been praying for healing and peace for this world and for all the people in it including myself. I pray for everyone who lost a loved one from covid, natural disasters or at the hands of another human being. This is a very broken world but please know that God is right here with us. He loves and cares for you. Even in what seems to be the darkest ugliest world at times there is still a light that is our refuge. Love is the only way through all of the evil.

R.I.P George Floyd and Breonna Taylor 🙏🏼 I want their families and friends to know that I have been praying for all you to find peace and strength. My heart breaks to see what keeps happening to black lives. A race that has endured so much heartache, sadness and injustices for many generations. Black lives absolutely matter!!! I don’t understand how people can feel they are superior to another. I deeply pray for people’s hearts to be humbled, softened and transformed. I can imagine a world where we all embrace one another and help each other out. It’s what heaven is like and we can experience that here on earth. I pray people realize that the ground is level at the foot of the cross. Which means we are all EQUAL in the eyes of God. Not one person is more important than another. WE NEED TO UNITE…not just this country but the entire world. We are all beautifully unique and have gifts to realize and share with one another. I pray for equality, justice and freedom to all who walk this planet. I pray the we are able to fully become who God has created us to be. People who love one another.

2020 has been a year full of realizations and revelations.

Most people around the entire world had to adjust the way they do everything because of the covid. Trying to find new ways to navigate through this season while dodging the invisible airborne enemy has been absolutely challenging. At times I have found myself extremely confused from all the conflicting information that’s given to the public. Who is protecting us and who is downplaying the reality of this virus? We are still facing deep rooted systematic problems in our government and racial inequalities. I stopped asking why and started asking what can I learn from all of this? How can I be apart of the solution? Valleys are what shape us and make us grow. Without the uncomfortable times we cannot learn how to adapt. We grow when we are tested and pushed to our limits. And that’s when we realize we can’t do this alone. We are apart of something much bigger. That’s when it gets really exciting!! When we finally realize the power we have within us and truly believe that unconditional love can transform lives we can make this world a better place. But we cannot thank ourselves for this gift it is from God our Father. We can all be a beacon of light to help others but you have to wake up everyday and choose love. Don’t doubt for a second that one life can’t make a difference. Doubt is the devil’s most effective tool along with silence. This is the year to rise up to take a stand and be the light!

Be thankful for the time you do get with loved ones and everything that comes your way! Just remember that this too shall pass, everything is temporary. The view from the mountain top and the view from the valley, it’s all temporary. The more we lean into God the more peace we will experience no matter where we are at in our journey.

I use to think that I only needed to pray when something was wrong or when I wanted something to go a certain way. But I’ve learned that prayer is really a constant conversation with God. This is the relationship that God wants us to have with Him. Putting God in the center of everything. God is love. Running every thought and choice by God first. The energy we choose to put into our relationships or into our work or the way we treat all people that cross our path in real life or on Facebook is a reflection of either God or the enemy. Try starting each day being full of gratitude and being available to serve.

“The Purpose of Life Is to Discover Your Gift. The Meaning of Life Is to Give Your Gift Away.”

-Vincent Van Gogh

I pray that everyone alive right now awakens to their true purpose here on earth. We all have our own unique gifts. I pray that we sit still and allow God to speak to us and move us. Instead of focusing on how we can serve ourselves I pray we focus on how can we serve one another.

Trusting in God and having a deep relationship really is the only way to stay sound in my heart and my mind. Everyday I try to read something from the Bible, talk to God, attend church, grow my faith, volunteer, donate, give thanks for the people in my life, the roof over my head, food growing in the garden and the time I get to sit still to quiet my mind. I have spent a lot of time reflecting. Reflecting on why I’m here, what’s my purpose, how should I use the time that I’ve been given. I’ve been asking myself, what does it really means to lay my life down and leave everything at the foot of the cross. And what does it look like to follow Jesus.

To me following Jesus means getting to know who He is. His character and the way He lived his life is our example of who we need to become more like. Jesus is God who is perfect and knowing that we will never be perfect on this side is reassuring that we won’t ever get it completely right. I found freedom and peace in accepting that I have nothing to prove. I know right now I am loved and worthy in Gods eyes. God knows us and in our hearts is where the truth lies. How we choose to respond to everything around us is key. Jesus doesn’t ever seemed to get rattled even moments leading up to the cross where he was being mocked, beaten and spit on. He remained humble. We can have great intentions but may always fall short. God knows that we are trying and he offers an abundant supply of grace and unconditional love.

With everything going on in the world and the election slowly approaching I found myself focused on too many negative things. I had to fast from Facebook for awhile so I would stop seeing all the negativity. I finally just broke down and sobbed. I had to turn everything over to God and stop worrying about all the possible outcomes.

When I found out my Aunt Kay was stopping by to visit The Holy Spirit inspired me to paint this. She is one of the sweetest and most thoughtful people I know. She said the painting reminds her of Hildegard of Bingen, a book she was studying at the time when I gave this to her. I wanted to paint a token of my love that is a reminder to pray about everything. As I was painting this I prayed for humanity. I prayed that we would open our hearts and listen to God. Last week during a book study I’m participating in through my church they shared a list of some of the ways God’s speaks to us. There are plenty of additional ways but I thought this list was a good start to recognizing God speaking to you.

  • Scripture
  • Preaching
  • Teaching
  • Repeating message
  • Other people
  • Circumstances
  • Nature
  • Music
  • Journal
  • Impression
  • Intuition
  • Common sense
  • Physical sensations
  • Visions
  • Dreams
  • Life situations
  • Still or voice in your head
  • Audible

There’s so many ways we can be the light for others especially in these trying times. I choose to pray about everything, stay close to God and keep creating. Turning back around to face the truth I was inspired to paint several more art pieces that focus on praying, embracing race and letting go.

Turn your worries into prayers.

Philippians 4:6

Thank you for taking time to read and please PRAY!!!

I invite you to check out the time lapse painting titled…


2 Comments Add yours

  1. K Rickwa says:

    Thank you Renae for sharing your talent in this painting. When I will look at your painting, I will always see the cross on the forehead of my “Hildegard Lady”. I will think of you, your strong faith and resolve in walking thru life with God. With Love and Hugs, Aunt Kay

  2. It’s absolutely a God thing!! Love you so much!

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